Friday, October 30, 2009

is it possible to have a relationship with someone from another planet?

The answer is NO. Remember, we tried the born again "christian". He is from another planet and the climate on that planet kills immediatelly anything from my planet. From my point of view, he lives on poison. Can we live together? NO. He needs what I consider poisonous.

So, here is another case. Someone who told me 7 years ago that I was ugly and too old and set in my ways, is now googling me all over, and it is rather strange. The guy was my roommate 7 years ago and the only conversations we ever had lasted a few minutes, and happened 7 years ago before he kicked me out of the house, and he kicked me because he couldn't stand me being around. I was irritating him beyond measure. During the 7 years, he kicked me out of more events and places and we have never talked at all, we didn't even say hi for years. Now we say hi but we never ever talk. This person is a night-life, party boy, he hangs around people half his age and "has fun". We have nothing in common.

Now, I am definitely 7 years older, and definitely not any younger nor prettier than 7 years ago. Maybe a little less set in my ways in some ways, but actually a lot more set in my ways in many ways. He never speaks to me nor talks with me. WHAT IS HE THINKING???

He is thinking that I shake my okole (behind, in Hawai'ian) very well, most likely. That is true, my dancing is now just fine. However - I am not my okole. I am me, the whole me.

What is he thinking, how would he "bring home" such an alien species like me? For one night it might work - is that how he is thinking? But how about tomorrow???? To bring home someone like me, you bring me home for a very long time and you are committing to Inner Work, working things out in the relationship, having a clean life, sharing the same pillow every night - no night life and going out, no flirting, no .... - in short, committment, long term. What is this guy thinking as he is googling me - he should be thinking how impossible it is and he should QUIT.

Maybe it's ok in night clubs to stare at people like that. It's NOT ok in regular day life that I lead.

It is quite amazing as to what we people think we can get. We think we can get something for nothing, or we want to grab something which is clearly completely opposite than us and would kill us. We try to grab things which are "interesting" and then we try to bring them home although it is clear they cannot live in our environment. Like, born again was thinking of being in a relationship with someone who is totally the opposite and thinks born again stuff is terrible - and even told him so. But he still tried!!! He tried his born again strategies on me - and some of it worked, like talking nice to me. This googling guy is trying strategies from his planet - googling someone accross the room. In his world, that works, and brings the psyched up woman straight into his arms for more flirting. Well, I am from another world. In my world, that kind of behavior is weird.

On some level, I understand what they are doing - they saw something nice and they are trying to catch it. However, that something is clearly not of their kind. WHy are they wasting time fantasizing about it. I think we all do - I notice in myself. I used to hope that the guy I loved would somehow magically CHANGE - the one who didn't have a job would suddenly decide to go working, born again would quit his nazism, etc. Well, you know - they NEVER change the way you want. They change in the way they are already going, they simply become more of that. So - either you like the guy as he is, right now, or you don't. Feeling the chemistry and hoping that you can pair up a cat and a dog is just impossible. But we like to fantasize and have false hopes. Humans love to fantasize. I am prone to that just like anyone else and I know what that means - I can have a thought - well, if that guy cuts his hair to normal (i.e. stops publicly advertising his "specialness", I will take him out. If born again shows up saying and demonstrating he quit, I'd take him back. If the jobless one gets a job, I'd take him back. BUT THEY NEVER DO. THE JOBLESS ONE IS STILL JOBLESS, I LOOK HIM UP IN LINKEDIN AND HE IS STILL DOING THE SAME THING, living at someone else's expense. Born again is still proudly born again, the night club dude is still at the night clubs. They are stuck in certain ways, and THEY LIKE THEIR WAYS and they are not going to change them, period.

Being old as I am, hormones are kinda secondary by this point. By now, I have made all kinds of mistakes and someone admiring my physical is definitely not even flattering. I learned the hard way. A younger inexperienced woman might fall for anyone who gives her any kind of attention. I am a lot older than that. :) Which makes me a lot harder to catch, and also a lot more valuable.

Also, at this point I am totally relaxed and I don't need to push anything anymore. Whoever loves me, will find a way to me. The first thing for a relationship is friendship, which requires talking and sharing. Someone who loves me will enjoy hanging around me and talking with me and doing things together. BTW that was the plus part of the born again - we were friends in many ways and worked through so much stuff together. It was very valuable. But - he didn't love me. This "I like your okole" guy also doesn't love me. They both love their own okole only. It takes a lot more, a real man, to love.

And, what I notice in me is a certain enjoyment of having the revenge - "aha, now you think I am great! Eat your words!" It comes up automatically in my case, I am a competitive pitta type and this is an inherent (and well practiced, for a long time) behavior that I struggle with all the time and it is hard but possible to go beyond it. A guy who told me I was ugly deserves to eat it. Born Again from that point of view deserves to be smacked right across his face and beat up. From another, much higher point of view, born again is so beyond anything reasonably human that the only thing he deserves is pitty. This googling guy is human, actually, he has kind eyes and a certain higher quality, he is just an immature human with inherent and well practiced and intentionally developed character weakness where he always goes the easy way - the club way of "fun, sex, and rock-n-roll."

Which brings us to a different subject - how men like tame, easy women - i.e. easy pray, easy to dominate. Who is going to like someone like me? sturdy, strong, opinionated, educated, etc. Only someone who is really strong will appreciate me and can handle me. I haven't met the guy yet. I need to. If you see him, send him my way. Thanks.

Opening the heart

A client asked me earlier this week if I came from a family of healers, since I have such a gift. I told her: well, my parents loved each other, never lied or stole, and never talked badly about anyone. Later, alone, I was thinking - yes, except about their own kids and to their own kids. They just neglected us, and furthermore, bullied us. It is a crime, really. Partially because they were so careless and I went through a super difficult growing years, I am a healer.

The next day this week, I was briefly hanging with my African drum teacher and another fellow drummer after the drum class. They are really nice, stable, respectable guys and I consider them friends and I enjoy their company. There is nothing fake about them, they are real, and they are kind and respectful to everyone.

So, anyways, it was a very brief chit chat, and we mentioned teenagers. And then I blurted something about me being a bad teenager, and they asked me about it. Since I was on the spot, I could not really evade the question. I could bs something, but I couldn't think of anything appropiate to say, so I was forced into providing an answer, and I so I told the truth:

I dated the guy who stole motorcycles and it was very abusive and I am very glad I wasn't beaten up nor gotten pregnant. It took me years to recover from the abuse.

I didn't tell them the WHOLE truth. I rememebered some details and connected the dots as to why the Born Again Monster made me feel so bad. I also remembered the details of my past and it was terrible to see it.
In the car, driving home, I was crying. It was very painful to realize how I mistreated myself back then. No wonder - the background I came from. It is a miracle I am still alive. I had bad training and I had no clue how to take care of myself.
So I forgave myself for mistreating myself, and I promised I will take better care.

When I came home, I rested, totally exausted, trying to connect with myself, and something happened - I could feel some kind of heavy armor around my heart let go. It felt literally like an opening of a heavy ... plate, door, something - that was covering up and closing off my heart.

The next day, physically, my ribs are completely sore in the heart area and the whole sternum area feels very stretched and sore. As if literally the whole thing was physically stretched, opened.

And, I FEEL DIFFERENT. Life suddenly has a lot more color and flavor. I feel happier.
It is amazing how it makes me physically different.


Thursday, October 29, 2009

Born Again Ignorant

In case there is anyone out there wondering what is ignorant about the white jesus supremacy theory -

well, if jesus is the only way to Heaven, if he is the only way to salvation, and if you don't follow him you go to hell -

how about all people who are Buddhist? Or Hindu? Or Sufi? Or whatever else?
"They are no children of god and they are going to hell, according to this jesus supremacy theory.
So most of humanity and all the saints of all religions have no clue whatsoever. Even Buddha himself is in hell."

Someone who has sufficient IQ can actually clearly see that this is false.
Someone dumb but with a heart can feel that this is false.

Only someone truly DUMB and CRUEL can take this belief system as a gospel and quote it from the Bible. Cruelty often comes from grief. At the end, it doesn't really matter where it came from - it still is cruelty towards others. An adult should use their brains and consider things.

When an adult brain promotes cruel beliefs, the person *is* cruel.

How is the jesus supremacy theory different than the white supremacy theory? It is NOT. It's the same thing. It is the discriminative "racist" thing that says "I am better than you".

Whoever can intellectually accept this is arrogant, selfish, disciminative, closeminded, racist/sexist/nationalistic/etc etc dude. Red neck IGNORANT to the max. A very provincial someone with the world view as big as a pea, and no heart / compassion whatsoever.

The truth is that God is One, and everything is God. Everyone is a Child of God and trudging on their way with as much dignity they can muster. Some people have walked further than others, and reached certain levels which are commendable, like Yogananda, like many saints.
We are all walking to the same goal, AND we are taking different paths.
Even the Born Again "christians" will have to get out of the dead-end road they are following now and one day step on the road that leads faster to what they are looking for. Right now, they are like babies shitting in their diapers. It's not possible to stay a baby forever. One day, they have to grow up and understand God in a little more mature way, and serve God in a more mature way.

The service to God is first acknowledging that it is everywhere, and treating the whole world as such.

What would it mean to see God everywhere and in everything?

It's not smoochey; it's not spartanic; it just *** IS ***.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

THe definition

FInally the definition of a Born Again "christian" came out very nicely:

it is a very small man who can hide behind one book (i.e. the Bible).

This is a pun, because books are physically relatively small so to hide behind one, a person has to be at most 11" tall :)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

It was my b-day this week. I won't tell you how many candles was on it :)

Today I attended a belly dance class for gypsy dances, by a "renown out of town guest" but it wasn't all that great in terms of dancing. It was good education in terms of talking about dance and artists. Oh well. Dance is such a powerful stretching/ healing tool.

Aisha of Greece, look for her on Facebook, is a superb dancer. Highly recommended. Dancing under her direction helps to reduce back pain.

Also, it is interesting what is happening to me as a "native European" as I go along with the classes in Congolese dance - I can wiggle and it feels good on my body, it is getting more limber as it is meant to be. It feels pono to reclaim my heritage.

Finally, this week, I relaxed. It finally dawned on me that I am SAFE. Remember the crazy Born Again "christian" who claimed he loved me more than anything, and then bailed out in a second and was over this great love in a weekend, proudly strutting his "christianity"?

He bailed many times. The last time before the last time he bailed, he disappeared for 7 or 8 months, and of course I thought he was gone and merrily went on with my life. Then he suddenly showed up again, without any concern for my well-being, causing so much stress for me. That's how much "christian" this person is. ANyways, now it is way more than 1 year since he disappeared and I think it is safe to assume he is gone forever.

This time, I think he is gone forever, because I made it clear that it is EITHER me OR born again "christianity" or any dogma like that. I told him he is straight from hell. Because he is. It is very discouraging and depressing and scary to have had contact with something that creepy. It makes you lose faith in humankind. The guy is a complete and total MONSTER. Something is wrong with him.

Finally it dawned on me that it has been more than a year without the creep and he is gone forever. That's good news.


I don't see any very good candidates on the horizon yet. There are many choices and there is a long line, but none of them are relationship material.
There are musicians who adore me for adoring them - that's easy, they play well! But it is a completely different story to date me. Then there is not only adoration and fun of playing music together. Then there is talking and working out through things. A guy like that doesn't even talk to me now as a friend. How would he talk later?
Or other people who think: ok, she went out with that old creepy moron Born Again Impotent, so she will go out with me too, I just need to smile and she will run into my arms, right? Wrong. I don't get it - someone who years ago told me I was old and ugly, is now all smiles towards me. I am certainly even older than then, and he never talked with me, never spent any time with me, hated being around me, always avoided me - so what is this person thinking? That magically now everythng is possible? I don't think so....
Or others...

It's kinda lonely here on the healing side. I should have worked for some special forces or something. Often people are either physical and not much thinking, or they are thinking but that's all they do. It is very rare to find someone like me, with exceptional intelligence AND also physical ability AND also spiritual inclinations. I am a "super model", I got it all. Often I wonder what I am doing with my life, since I have so many gifts, am I using them properly?



I will post the links here, keep on adding to it.

From that comes the whole slew of nice links.

And some Native links!

the whole legal system is a scam...

It just dawned on me:

the whole legal system is designed for very rich people, who can afford to hire a lawyer to represent them.

Because, the hearings are scheduled on work days, 9-5. So if you work, you must take time off.

If you don't make enough money to take time off, or you have a job (e.g. a teacher, full time caregiver) and cannot take time off, then you have to hire a lawyer to go instead of you.

So, if you don't make enough money to pay the lawyer and/or you cannot go to court, then - you cannot sue.

Another possibility is having the time to go to court yourself. Usually such people are poor (retired, disabled, etc.) and do not have the skills to represent themselves.

In any case:
If you cannot sue, various vultures see that and try to rip you off.


Very cool ethno math sites; rhythm sites; about Oneness

Math teacher told me about ethno math, and it is way cool, there are so many sites!!!! That don't even come up when you search for fractals, etc.
Then go to home page: then - whatever!The African fractals are cool, it lets you make your own.

There is also ALgebra project,

Of course, math has been around forever - old Hawai'ians built boats and sailed for thousands of miles on open sea, they were master mathematicians. Arabs, Chinese, Indians, Egyptians, S. Americans - they all had profound and complex math. Africans with their music, art, living structures. And so on - there is math everywhere and has been everywhere, even recorded, way before the Western European civilization's linear, simple and violent way of thinking took over. Ancient Greeks and Romans are guilty for starting this, and then English,French and German picking it up with their industrial revolution and blowing the planet away.

This seems to be the bad karma of W. Europe - having the intellect to construct things, and choosing to use it for destruction and personal gain regardless of cost to others and the environment.

But not let's chastise "white people" because it's not about color, it's about what is INSIDE, how trained the brain is to work in the Higher modes.
Because, when you take the skin off, we are all red underneath :) says Yogananda.

"White" is actually not the term for color of the skin, but for a very egoistical way of being. People who have skin color in other tones can also be "white".

In Hawai'ian, the term is "haole" - person who doesn't share their breath.


Majority of what is called "human" will discriminate anyone, anywhere, that's the lower human nature.

Every unhealed human being has reasons to feel inferior about something. Regardless of their prestige, color, money, status, etc.

and also tries to be superior to whoever is perceived "weaker" and dominate them.

In unhealed human mind, "weaker" is anything that is: loving, giving, kind, not able/willing to bite you back, anything dependent on you (e.g. children and pets and elderly), etc and also anything DIFFERENT. Unhealed human is scared of anything different.

So the bottom line is what is inside in the mind and the heart. The more evolved we are towards being a real human being, the more we have higher qualities and do not need to kiss up and kick down.

There are other things that need to be brought into attention, and that is the notion of Native or minority.

There are so many different variables - being Native or a minority of any kind does not mean being enlightened. It often means being trained in more awareness and kindness and Oneness. But it doesn't have to be - Native cultures in the past have been quite violent. These days, Native cultures seem to be going towards a more enlightened way because they have to, in order to survive.

There are Native cultures of every kind, including white European.

Being a minority does not mean being enlightened or better in any way. Minorities are majorities in their own environment, where they discriminate and abuse those who they can, those of their own kind, and anyone else who gets on the radar and is seen as an easy target. It's the same stuff that everyone anywhere does :)


An unhealed human is worse than an animal because it operates out of context and destroys for self gain without even blinking.

An unhealed human is simply a complex crazy animal and thinks only of eating and mating and gaining the prestige that makes sure this happens - and doesn't care what means they use to make sure it happens.

The bottom line is that we are all same on the inside - we all start low and should aim for High - and that the only way to achieve something is the training of the inside.

Some personal examples:
I am white and blue eyed and female engineer and immigrant and it is interesting to walk through different worlds and see what it looks like. I have never been discriminated for color in the USA, however I am a foreigner so I have heard Americans say things like: "wow, you look just like us!" etcAs a female engineer, I have heard things like "women will never be good engineers" etc. As a "socially lame person" I have been discriminated in the social circles of many colors, they made fun of me, and often because they raged against something white. People who bitch about being discriminated against, actually discriminate against others. In my own country, I am on the very light side and thus a minority. My ex-husband's family told him to ditch me because I was too pale and they wanted a hot darker chick (because they had dark hair and eyes)In K1-12 school, I was discriminated against by students because I had As, or because I wouldn't smoke behind the school after hours, or because I was bad in sports. I was discriminated against by teachers because I had a very traditional name of the wrong political orientation - name of Serbian queen in communist times...In my own family, I was discriminated against through my entire life because I wouldn't do what they asked me to do, because I knew it was wrong and I said no. So they ditched me.

The lilly white Born Again christian who used to be my friend is a perfect example - a pure American, white with blue eyes, even handsome, even of the proper religion, even of the proper heritage etc - he was discriminated against because he was not rich; and also he felt discriminated against as an adequate male because he was rather small and scrawny. Probably also was picked on and felt bad when he lost his mother as a child. Then he joined the Born Again "christian" church organization that promised to provide him a protective cover - and woila! Suddenly he made himself special and invincible.

So, as you can see, many organizations explot this inherent human bug of feeling inadequate and inferior, and the laziness in many humans to actually do the Inner Work to make themselves into something Higher. We feel bad, we want to feel good instantly - so we join church or whoever promises to give it to us.


Sunday, October 18, 2009


I was going bananas -

and finally finally I took the hint and went into wilderness -

ooooooooooh what a relief.

It is so soothing, calming, refreshing to be in wilderness.

All people stuff just disappears and what is left is just Purity of God.

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Saturday, October 17, 2009

Cold vs flu symptoms

This is true, from personal experience.
Sinus problems are due to mold, very often.

Know the Difference between Cold and Flu Symptoms
Fever is rare with a cold.
Fever is usually present with the flu in up to 80% of all flu cases. A temperature of 100°F or higher for 3 to 4 days is associated with the flu.
A hacking, productive (mucus- producing) cough is often present with a cold.
A non-productive (non-mucus producing) cough is usually present with the flu (sometimes referred to as dry cough).
Slight body aches and pains can be part of a cold.
Severe aches and pains are common wi th the flu.
Stuffy Nose
Stuffy nose is commonly present with a cold and typically resolves spontaneously within a week.
Stuffy nose is not commonly present with the flu.
Chills are uncommon with a cold.
60% of people who have the flu experience chills.
Tiredness is fairly mild with a cold.
Tiredness is moderate to severe with the flu.
Sneezing is commonly present with a cold.
Sneezing is not common with the flu.
Sudden Symptoms
Cold symptoms tend to develop over a few days.
The flu has a rapid onset within 3-6 hours. The flu hits hard and includes sudden symptoms like high fever, aches and pains.
A headache is fairly uncommon with a cold.
A headache is very common with the flu, present in 80% of flu cases.
Sore Throat
Sore throat is commonly present with a cold.
Sore throat is not commonly present with the flu.
Chest Discomfort
Chest discomfort is mild to moderate with a cold.
Chest discomfort is often severe with the flu.

cinnamon and honey

I love cinnemon and honey - so I agree with the below :) :) :)

Honey and Cinnamon

Honey is the only food on the planet that will not spoil or rot. It will
do what some call “turning to sugar”. In reality honey is always honey.
However, when left in a cool dark place for a long time it will do what
I rather call "crystallizing".

When this happens I loosen the lid, boil some water, and sit the honey
container in the hot water, turn off the heat and let it liquefy. It is then
as good as it ever was.

Never boil honey or put it in a microwave. To do so will kill the enzymes
in the honey.

Cinnamon and Honey

Facts on Honey and Cinnamon:

It is found that a mixture of honey and Cinnamon cures most diseases.
Honey is produced in most of the countries of the world. Scientists of
today also accept honey as a 'Ram Ban' (very effective) medicine for all
kinds of diseases.

Honey can be used without any side effects for many kinds of diseases.

Today's science says that even though honey is sweet, if taken in the
right dosage as a medicine, it does not harm diabetic patients.

Weekly World News, a magazine in Canada , in its issue dated 17
January, 1995 has given the following list of diseases that can be cured
by honey and cinnamon as researched by wester n scientists:

Make a paste of honey and cinnamon powder, apply on bread, instead of
jelly and jam, and eat it regularly for breakfast. It reduces the
cholesterol in the arteries and saves the patient from heart attack.
Also, those who have already had an attack, if they do this process
daily, they are kept miles away from the next attack. Regular use of the
above process relieves loss of breath and strengthens the heart beat.
In America and Canada , various nursing homes have treated patients
successfully and have found that as you age, the arteries and veins lose
their flexibility and get clogged; honey and cinnamon revitalize the
arteries and veins..

Arthritis patients may take daily, morning and night, one cup of hot
water with two spoons of honey and one small teaspoon of cinnamon
powder. If taken regularly even chronic arthritis can be cured. In a
recent research conducted at the Copenhagen University , it was found
that when the doctors treated their patients with a mixture of one
tablespoon Honey and half teaspoon Cinnamon powder before breakfast,
they found that within a week, out of the 200 people so treated,
practically 73 patients were totally relieved of pain, and within a
month, mostly all the patients who could not walk or move around because
of arthritis started walking without pain.

T ake two tablespoons of cinnamon powder and one teaspoon of honey in a
glass of lukewarm water and drink it. It destroys the germs in the bladder.

Two tablespoons of honey and three teaspoons of Cinnamon Powder mixed in
16 ounces of tea water, given to a cholesterol patient, was found to reduce the
level of cholesterol in the blood by 10 percent within two hours. As mentioned for
arthritic patients, if taken three times a day, any chronic cholesterol is cured. According
to information received in the said Journal, pure honey taken with food daily relieves
complaints of cholesterol.

Those suffering from common or severe colds should take one tablespoon
lukewarm honey with 1/4 spoon cinnamon powder daily for three days. This
process will cure most chronic cough, cold, and clear the sinuses.

Honey taken with cinnamon powder cures stomach ache and also clears
stomach ulcers from the root.

According to the studies done in India and Japan , it is revealed that if
Honey is taken with cinnamon powder the stomach is relieved of gas.

Daily use of honey and cinnamon powder strengthens the immune
system and protects the body from bacteria and viral attacks.
Scientists have found that honey has various vitamins and iron in large
Constant use of Honey strengthens the white blood corpuscles to20fight
bacterial and viral diseases.

Cinnamon powder sprinkled on two tablespoons of honey taken before food
relieves acidity and digests the heaviest of meals.

A scientist in Spain has proved that honey contains a natural '
Ingredient' which kills the influenza germs and saves the patient from

Tea made with honey and cinnamon powder, when taken regularly, arrests the
ravages of old age. Take four spoons of honey, one spoon of cinnamon powder,
and three cups of boiling water to make a tea. Drink 1/4 cup, three to four times a
day. It keeps the skin fresh and soft and arrests old age. Life spans also increase
and even a 100 year old, starts performing the chores of a 20-year-old.

Three tablespoons of honey and one teaspoon of cinnamon powder paste.
Apply this paste on the pimples before sleeping and wash it next morning
with warm water. If done daily for two weeks, it removes pimples from
the root.

Applying honey and cinnamon powder in equal parts on the affected parts
cures eczema, ringworm and all types of skin infections.

Daily in the morning one half hour before breakfast on an empty stomach,
and at night before sleeping, drink honey and cinnamon powder in one cup of
boiled water. If taken regularly, it reduces the weight of even the
most obese person.
Also, drinking this mixture regularly does not allow the fat to accumulate
in the body even though the person may eat a high calorie diet.

Recent research in Japan and Australia has revealed that advanced cancer
of the stomach and bones have been cured successfully. Patients
suffering from these kinds of cancer should daily take one tablespoon of
honey with one teaspoon of cinnamon powder for one month three times a day.

Recent studies have shown that the sugar content of honey is more
helpful rather than being detrimental to the strength of the body.
Senior citizens, who take honey and c innamon powder in equal parts, are
more alert and flexible. Dr. Milton, who has done research, says that a
half tablespoon of honey taken in a glass of water and sprinkled with
cinnamon powder, taken daily after brushing teeth and in the afternoon at
about 3:00 P.M. when the vitality of the body starts to decrease,
increases the vitality of the body within a week.

People of South America , first thing in the morning, gargle with one
teaspoon of honey and cinnamon powder mixed in hot water, so their
breath stays fresh throughout the day.

Daily morning and night honey and cinnamon powder, taken in equal parts restores hearing.

similar to Sufi prayer: may you be well...

Saint Theresa's Prayer
> May today there be peace within.
> May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
> May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
> May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love
> that has been given to you.
> May you be confident knowing you are a child of God. Let this
> presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to
> sing, dance, praise and love.
> It is there for each and every one of us.

Are computers masculine or feminine?

A SPANISH Teacher was explaining to her
class that in Spanish, unlike English, nouns are designated as either masculine or feminine.

'House' for instance, is feminine: 'la Casa.' 'Pencil,' however, is masculine: 'el lapiz.'

A student asked, 'What gender is 'computer'?'

Instead of giving the answer, the teacher split the class into two groups, male and female, and asked them to decide for themselves whether computer' should be a masculine or a feminine noun.. Each group was asked to give four reasons for its recommendation.

The men's group decided that 'computer' should definitely be of the feminine gender ('la computadora'), because:

1. No one but their creator understands their internal logic;

2. The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else;

3. Even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible later retrieval; and

4. As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it..

The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be Masculine ('el computador'), because:

1. In order to do anything with them, you have to turn them on;

2. They have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves;

3. They are supposed to help you solve
problems, but half the time they ARE the problem; and

4. As soon as you commit to one, you realize that if you had waited a little longer, you could have gotten a better model.

The women won.

Friday, October 16, 2009

looking back...

If it weren't for being spooked by the ex-friend from hell, I probably would have never made it to African things. I suddenly had (a lot more) time last Nov, and I used it by going to dance and drum classes.

Looking back, it wasn't a bad investment, it got me in top shape and taught me a lot about orthopedic stretching.

So this is the scoop: if you want a healthy body, make sure your spine is flexible, and especially pelvis, and also strong at the same time. Stiff and strong, flexible and weak - are bad combinations. FLEXIBLE AND STRONG is the key. The key to that is movement, and esp. pelvic stretches.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

How to recognize real stuff

There is a Tibetan store in Haleiwa. Yeepee! Very nice store.

They gave me a DVD with Dalai Lama speech. I listened to it on Sunday afternoon, after working at the market. I came home, ate, and then just decided to rest, to just be quiet for a while and watch that DVD.

The DVD, as it turned out, had no subtitles, the whole thing was in Tibetan. First it was a whole bunch of Tibetans watching some monks and nuns doing the discussions, Buddhist Tibetan style, where they challenge each other. So, ok, that was in Tibetan and ok, there was no subtitles. Understandable. Then Dalai Lama started speaking - in Tibetan, no subtitles. I could not find the subtitles on the DVD. Nonetheless, I continued watching it. It made sense. I have no idea what he said, but it was very relaxing and made sense, and made me say: hm, I need to learn to speak Tibetan and I.... fell into a very very deep deep sleep. I lost consciousness, basically. I woke up after 4 hours, and I had no recollection of anything. I just knew that I woke up different. My mind was suddenly a lot calmer and on a very different frequency. I was not upset, or anything anymore. I was just calm and everything made sense. And, it was permanent. That state just stayed. As if someone rewired me.

I have had such experiences before, where True words of some enlightened being made me drop into some kind of "tunnel", like Alice in Wonderland did, where I'd lose consciousness and come back different, permanently. Actually, so far these kinds of experiences have changed my life.

So, Dalai Lama is True. We all knew that anyways, did we :) Just confirming :)

Dalai Lama is the only alive Master that I know of at the moment. There might be others that I don't know about. I am talking about big caliber ones, like Yogananda or Gurdjieff (not to mention Jesus or Buddha) and taking students. And "alive" as being in human body. All those guys who are officially "dead" are not dead, they are all over and you can get hold of them at any time if you call them in. Jesus said: every time you call me, I am there, and that is true, I have tried that. Yet, there is something very special and very helpful about experiencing a fellow human being who has reached a high level.

Speaking of role models, I want to learn more about Milarepa, Tibetan saint who was first a really bad guy until he decided to become enlightened, and then he had to work REALLY hard for it, and finally got it. We are all like Milarepa :) If he could do it, I can do it too.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Born Again fame

Since now I have a certain reputation as a "lose" woman since I dated the icky Born Again "christian" - if I could date such a nasty old rat, I could date anyone, right, since I must be totally non-discriminatory. That's the conclusion of some of the locals, who are now convinced that I take applications without any questions. So people with serious issues (as serious as Born Again "christianity") are hoping some good luck magically falls on them.

It might look that there is no criteria, but it is a false impression, it is not as easy as it looks and I certainly don't fall into anyone's lap just like that. The Born Again rat had to work hard, nonstop, for about 2 yrs, to get closer to me. The fact that he did get closer is a testimony to his cunning skill and the ability to fake it - say, act whatever is necessary that will bring him favors; which is exactly the skill that 'christians' learn in their church. They are MASTER ASS KISSERS. They say anything they think will bring them brownie points. They don't mean any of that. They don't practice a single iota. They just bs. And they are good at it! I fell for some convincing bsing, which is a good leasson. The good thing is that I kept on testing the guy and eventually he couldn't pretend anymore. There is a point where no empty words works.

A bser like that doesn't see it. He told me it would be enough for him to "just say" he doesn't believe his stuff anymore. No - in my world, it is not enough to just say something, You actually have to feel it, live it, move with it, it has to BE inside. Words are good intentions but - that's not enough.

At the end, what is necessary to win the princess is to bring back the fire bird.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

human-looking animals

After my experiences in the court and with the tenants and Board from hell, and with some other fake people, including prim and proper "christians", this is the result of that research:

majority of what-looks-like-a-human actually isn't human inside.
This is how fake humans work:

1. THEY DO EVERYTHING BASED ON FEAR. Just like animals. They try to kiss ass of those who are stronger and kick butt of those who are "weaker". A fake human, just like an animal, has a keen sense of who is weaker, not "cool", etc. and therefore can be bullied and prayed upon. Also, who is "stronger" can hurt you, and thus fake humans pretend to be "good" and something else in front of these people possessing "power".

The corollaries:






So this is how human animals work, no different than a bunch of chimpanzees checking out who is the biggest one and can beat up the others and grab most food and most mates.


Now, the "doom theory" unfortunately is geared exactly towards this. If what-looks-like-human were actually human, it wouldn't need to be cajoled into doing something of service using FEAR as the motivator.
Real humans do things out of love and sense of responsibility and compassion and service.

In fact, when we dare to love, service comes naturally. Giving is natural and normal. WHEN THERE IS NO GIVING, SOMETHING HAS GONE WRONG.


So when you deal with these human-looking animals, you have to strut your stuff, you have to display power, and you have to scare them into thinking you can bite their head off. Then they won't dare try bully you / land / Nature / etc.

So - hiss. You don't have to bite, but you do have to hiss - maybe a lot, in order to protect, heal and caretake.

The kinder and more giving and more "quiet" you look, the more you will be assaulted and the more you will have to put your foot down. Don't even risk it. The morons cannot tell and you have to scare them / impress them before it's too late and they start doing damage.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Common sense is very uncommon on Earth

Being an alien on this planet (I think from Betelgez V?), to me life on Earth seems very weird. Indeed. Things here are pretty messed up, to say the least.

Finally I am connecting the dots as to why I am so "eccentric" and such an alien here. There are some things that I take for granted that most people simply do not even comprehend nor think about, or even if they do, they think it is bologney.
From my point of view, they are alien and weird, and I am socialized into something sane.

So, here are some things observed:
majority of what-looks-like-a-human actually isn't human inside.
How they work is exactly how that Born Again Ignorant member works, he is actually a good example of non-human that tries to pretend it is human. So this is how fake humans work:

1. THEY DO EVERYTHING BASED ON FEAR. Just like animals. They try to kiss ass of those who are stronger and kick butt of those who are "weaker". A fake human, just like an animal, has a keen sense of who is weaker, not "cool", etc. and therefore can be bullied and prayed upon. Also, who is "stronger" can hurt you, and thus fake humans pretend to be "good" and something else in front of these people possessing "power".

The corrolaries:






So this is how human animals work, no different than a bunch of chimpanzees.


What amazes me, completely amazes me, is how lucky and fortunate I was to have relatively sane childhood and relatively sane parents. They were completely neglectful and terrible yet I have never seen my parents try to hurt other people. They never took anything from their jobs, never gossiped, never ployed. They were honest, decent people. What a rarity!!!!
And thanks to my (evil) grandmother, I was actually raised properly, in many ways, I had real food, and real things to do, a proper schedule. That is so rare these days!!!!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

The Real is one, but the sages speak about it in different ways

From Bhagavadgita IX.23:

Ekam sad vipra bahudh vadanti.

The Real is one, but the sages speak of it in different ways.

—Rg Veda (I.164.46)


As my elderly neighbor said so eloquently: we all have different maps, leading to the same place. Our maps are different because we start from different places, live in different places. But the destination is the same - God.


healing benefits of "wavy" dance

There was some heavy furniture that I tried to move, and later feelt pain in my back. It didn't help at all that I didn't have enough sleep for days because the schedule was so busy, and that I was doing a lot of physical labor (paining, srubbing the floor on all 4, etc.) The pain in the back went away, but then the knee hurt, and I could feel the ankle beginning to complain and also the neck wasn't happy. Conclusion: the back adjusted its position to avoid pain, so then the pain transferred. I would try massaging the knee, then the knee was fine but then the back hurt. Then I'd massage the back (by myself).

I then went belly dancing with Aisha of Greece. She is amazing - she told us exactly which muscles to move and which to avoid. After 2 hrs of that, I was feeling a lot better - not stiff anymore, but flexible and relaxed again.

However, I had to do painting and cleaning up (another story) after her class, and so I was tired, achey, etc. with the work and the lack of sleep. In 3 days, I had only a few hours of sleep and was extremely physically active.

The next day, in spite of all that, I went Congolese dancing. We did some yoga, we did some warmups, and then we did the dance, which is very much "wavy", similar to belly dance. The pelvis moves and rotates freely. I was practicing what Aisha taught us in belly dance and could feel how my pelvis is relaxed and moving freely.

I walked out of that class completely fine. 100% feeling 100% good. It stayed permanent.

The moral of the story: THE PELVIS IS THE KEY TO EVERYTHING.

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